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2009-08-02T09:26:00.000-07:00

this on whole week totally feel like eternity.why?! basically cause i cant talk and cant eat!
my jaw operation is finally completed and im recovering from this.

the swelling is quite bad. but then again im recovering!

i really need to thank alot of my friends for coming and also for all the care and concern!!!
in the hospital and off the hospital. THANKS FRIENDS!!! loves!

2009-07-21T10:58:00.000-07:00

FREAK OUT!!!!!

suddenly think about alot of stuff!
yes, i think i will freak out!!

tmr is solar eclipse day!!
exciting!! muzs wake up at 8 tmr!!

liting mum give me a tira!! so pretty!! but den i accidentally step on it and it break into two.
sad.....
but i manage to tape it back with clear scotch tape =))

2009-07-19T10:05:00.000-07:00

If you are wondering what am i doing these few days, or from the day i last blogged.. well the photos can clearly explain that i have been fully utilizing my free days and time to enjoy what i can before i go for my op!gulp.. O.0!!

Finally the end of a production with much sense of achievements and also full of memories to reminisce. Then again, looking back at the process of this production, there is a mixture of feelings that is so overwhelming, i can't put into words to describe.
When it all ended, we only could remember those enjoyable moments in hkhk and VT.

just this friday, 17 july, we had QING GONG YAN PART 1 at Yuri's place. There is really a lot of photographs that are on my facebook!!lots of fun. lots of gossips and lots of KIDS!! yay!!!

pple that went and had this real great group photo taken: celeste,huiling,zining,yingning,wenlin,huimin,yuri,jiaqi,roxanne,colette,yunjun,randall, ruixian,zexin,sheryl, yilei, yihui,jiajun,wenjie,yicui, regina, kiat, vic,xiling, aubrey, wenqi,kimberyl,yisong,jerome, meijun,that me, benedit,zhenmin,xinyi, ying xin,cheryl, gerald, justin,ziyi,kenko,junpeng,peikun,gin gin, linghao,junquan,xunbin, fan keng, cheeguan.
missing: serena, jalyn lao shi and august.

yes! yes! that is emperor's new clothes QING GONG YAN PART 1. Although still quite a number of people weren't there, but we really had lots of fun!! WOHOO!!

Let me introduced a new programme that hkhk elderly are very obsessed curently with and indeed excited about too..Caz almost everynight we do oovoo-ing!! LOOK!! its video conference up to 6 people!! WOHHOO!! ITs called OOVOO!! and if you realised and see sining is in KOREA.. which means can overseas video conferencing!! AMAZING RIGHT?!

what's next? FISH SPA!! We went to KENKO wellness for free fish spa treatment, well because yuri is the princess of kenko wellness.. One of a kind experience!!
Serena asked me to blog about him. What a scandalous photo right? It does looked like we were holding hands! Scandalous!! But definately not as scandalous as sushi girl!! no one bother to scandal about the both of us! awww.. Well, i think we can fight with Zhiyuan's wedding profile pic! right? since we both wearing white too!!

Wohoo!! KTV after PRODUCTION ends!! yay!! we went to the 10dollars KTV session at hometeam ns balestier road!! its so big that can fit all of us and despite being totally exhausted from bumping out, that night we stayed up to SING,DANCE and go CRAZY till 1am the next morning.

Look at this!!! yay!! im so glad that i pulled all of them into the production.. if not i will be damn bored, damn sad and damn lonely!!! yay!!! to THEM!!!

liting mum is super brave!! she shaved for hope!! we still love you!!!

and of course!! FRED!!Tekong will make you strong and fit with all fats gone!! Then you will be muscular man!! You should remain this hair cut, its manly for you! wahaha.
cas is already in australia!! hope everything is fine for you girl! way to go!!
right now i know that nad is going to germany for 6 months for exchange programme!! GERMANY!! urghh....how i wish it was me that is going...
missing from the photo: queen, min, watson, yuen cheng and matt.

i want to be away too!

2 more days to a new look, a new face, no talking, no eating.
You asked me if i'm scared??
So in order to not let you get worried, ill be brave and I'll reply" nope! not scared!"
its a major change. i cant adapt to the change in such a short time. I fear beyond what you can think of.
i cant sleep in the middle of the night and im having butterflies in my stomach. i'm nervous and i figgits all around to try to digress and not talk abt it.

yes.cowardly timidly scared and afraid..

2009-06-13T08:54:00.000-07:00

I'm not that busy actually, just a little lazy to blog about whatever things that happen for every single day. Thus, i would only like to jot down the fun that i had and would never want to forget those wonderful memories...

it 13 June, a Saturday. For the past few weeks i was really packed with stuff to do. Always trying to make myself free for my friends and many other responsibilities that I'm suppose to handle.

Today was the 1st ever full dress rehearsal for emperor. Messy it is.. and the energy level was low. Everyone seems to be in their own world, not into their character. The cast still forget bits and pieces of their lines, but overall its seems better than the previous full run that we had, only in terms of remembering their lines. It was obvious that everyone energy level was way low than the previous full run rehearsals. But there is definitely someone that i think his changed was really obvious and remarkable.

anyway. Today when i was talking to the little devils... ah cheng asked me this:

ah cheng: yonglin jie jie, you got bf anot?
Zhen Zhe: confirm have one lar!!
Zhexin: dont have lar! she sure don't have, nvm can consider linghao!
Ah Cheng: nvm. yonglin jie jie you got us!

they are primary sch kids!! primary 4,5,6!!

den again... from the cute AH CHENG!!
ah cheng: yonglin jie jie, is this the zip to zip down so can wear the clothes??!!!

they are suppose to changed to their costume!

you see kids nowadays!! are still so ""CUTE"""and naive!! some are matured in their own way but they are definitely not innocent!!!!

There goes fred and yuen cheng to serve the nation and do us proud consecutively for two weeks into tekong PARIS!! wohoo!! good luck guys! and we sure had our fun farewell-ing your hair...

then it was biscep camp and biscep dinner!!! YAY!!!!! we had our fun and our outing!! YEAH!!! so happy to be with them!!

and really not forgetting PASAR THEATRE that allowed me to learn and experience so many things that is useful and ill never forget the lessons I've learnt from this production! It was an eye opener at how PASAR THEATRE was done and being part of it as the stage engineer really makes me happy! Really have to thank jalyn lao shi for the opportunity and NAC workers(woon ying and jiawei lao shi) as well.. and of course my technicians fedorz! and angela for her GREAT HELP!!

lingying jie and jessica!!!

zhiyang and pretty pretty wanjun!!!!!!

the rest of the week will be frigging hectic for emperor. more rehearsals means need to spend more time in hkhk. I still wan to act :)) but i will want to do my job really well this time round too! just like the effort i put in for PASAR theatre!! cause i know that with my effort, ill learn more things and gain more than i ever imagine! that's wad happen to pasar i believe it will be the same for emperor.

2009-05-26T12:35:00.000-07:00

its another night of coming home late again. but apparently i get the freedom from my parents or they just cant be bothered with me anymore.

i've always been out with the hk peeps till late night. and its perfectly normal for us to be chilling out, hanging around till late nights. because they are totally fine with it. everyone has the transport back home. either by their car or the big cheeguan's van!!

but this is the very first time, other than the clubbing nights and the chalet nights, i stayed out late with sharmin, min,watson,yc and uxen. Of course the feeling is new, but den it was like a open concept of chalet! we still get home after a long htht. thanks for the ride watson!

and well i guess, the girls would never regret that we stayed out late for this htht. just one step closer to this building of friendship.

such talks are once in a millions yrs. i enjoyed it. do you???

10am driving tmr! im dead! and tuan kang!! and minds cafe! its another crazy day!!!

2009-05-19T22:54:00.000-07:00

DARN!
seriously annoying to wake up by the unforeseen drilling noise from the upgrading of the new lift. Thus causing a harmless sleepy GIRL to shout vulgarities out early in the morning! Such a pain. NOISE pollution will cause a fuzzy mood.

i have the urge to get out of the country again! Away from the skyscrapers, noise pollution and disease influenza.

If its not for swine flu and Pasar theatre, I'm probably in the operating theatre undergoing the CHANGE. 20th may 2009 turns out to be just an ordinary day that she jump out of bed, stomp out of the room and slump the house door!

i'm perfectly FINE!

2009-05-17T08:53:00.000-07:00

there is no grounds that explains my nonchalent attitude towards everything that is happening around me. In fact, i don't really know what has gotten into me. Probably 4 days of late night sleeping, staying up till rise and shine, a jumble of the body clock answers it all.

just to summarise, i've not been very happy i guess. the path and route infront is just so misty, that i get all paranoid about what pathway should i take. where the F am i heading to.

i'm officially unemployed right now, thus life is just so aimless and pointless once again.
whatever it is. my morale is low right now. to cheer myself up...

some photos of grad and chalet, which consecutively happened..

That yixin! peiling and keatwin!

my yr 1 mates. pretty ladies. esther.debbie.lao da peiwen, lavina, christie.

And thats jiv.TRM graduation slot was same as BS.

thats mike, my vietnam fren.

Thats amanda. she came for jiv of course not me. anyway saw shyam too..

Thats the XIAO CA0. william. yesh good looking enough to be xiao cao of course.

the guys that i've spend the most memoriable days of my poly life. everyday when i wake up for that 6 mths, they are the first people i see. they are the ones that impact my life too...

diane. is a super nice group mate for IS modules.. and im didnt get to take any photo with sarah.

shuang shuang and my package! well my package is of course yiling. where ever i go she goes too! haha.. we are just like a package. buy one get one free.. im going to miss shuang shuang.

and fangqi, minwee, fizah,xingting too.. becaz of this bunch of cliques in sch. im very motivated to study and have been super good in sch. attending most lectures..

but i guess. nothing can be compared to these sec sch peeps.. 4e2 is just so bonded. we organised activities and our frens join in the fun too :) like sharmin and hilyah!

well i was looking forward to langkawii with watson and people. but sigh. swine influenza with my surgery postponed. I WANT TO GO LANGKAWII!!! END OF THE YR !!!

well lastly not forgetting these äi yan hkhk peeps..

2009-05-03T10:14:00.000-07:00

its a busy busy week!! totally packed and full of activites. BUT i totally enjoyed myself,mostly spent my time with the bunch of active happening hkhk people.we are the "ai yan".love to act group of peeps, thus the fun and laughter. In others eye's, i bet everyone thinks that we are kinda freaky and weird. but who cares??

anyway for the past weeks, i've been to many parties with the hkhk peeps. most of them turn 21. SO my facebook is filled with photos and videos taken during their parties.

and of course gossips.

Its another type of feeling and attitude when you are with them.

2009-04-21T09:09:00.001-07:00

how many of your parents actually bothers to understand you??
how many??

even how unreasonable they are we have to listen to them???

they give you some shit reason and you have to listen...

they anyhow throw temper at you and you cant do anything..

when their parents did the same to them! so they have to do the same thing back to us lar!

FUCK!

2009-04-18T08:18:00.000-07:00

although i'm physically back home. my soul still seems to be roaming in taiwan. i love that place. i envy all those that are going in one months time or tomorrow. even though i've been there once,i will still want to get back there again. totally loved taiwan. totally loved my stay there. in this whole paragraph of what i feel, you can count the amount of times i wrote "loved", it completely shows my affection toward this beautiful and amazing country.

这样的记忆让我在三回味。。

The whole plantation of lavander.

i reminisced the times we spent in the plantation as if i could still smell the aroma of those flowers lingering in the air. so carefree, so relaxed, the mind is calm, you feel the wind, you close your eyes and enjoy the moment. you leave behind all your troubles, your worries, your past, and yourself.. embranced the silence, embranced mother nature...

心情是如此的平静。。

忘掉了所有的烦恼，

忘了所有的悲伤，

忘掉那不开心的过去，

也忘了我自己。。

真希望能永远无忧无虑的生活着。。。

this is a cafe located at ximending. we were mesmorised by the whole atompshere of the cafe till we had the urge to go in, have a sip of coffee and a slice of cake and just to relax after a long day.

美得像一幅画。。

如果能在这里喝一杯香浓的咖啡。。

是一件幸福的事。。。

why am i blogging in chinese?? you might be wondering..

cause i read Ji Mi's books again..

and besides that. this post is abt taiwan..

writting it in chinese.. 比较有感觉。。

anyway.. after coming back from taiwan.. been busy with driving and emperor's rehearsals and pasar theatre's stuff.. theres quite alot of things to handle for both productions.

but in between i still enjoy myself. going out with the hkhk outting gang.. for movie, for k-ing.

met up with fated.

driving is getting a little more exciting as i starts to drive in the night. more cars, so have to move faster.Accerlerate. I tried u-turning. :))

what about braces? my surgery?

its settled. the date is fixed. and it screwed my plan..

i wanted to have my surgery on the 27may so at least i can handle the pasar theatre's production before having the long break.

but i did not expect that my surgeon would carry forward my operation date to 20th may. which means i have to forgo the pasar theatre's production. F**K. yes. i am pissed, because i've told Dr Poon that i wanted it to be on the 27th of may weeks ago, yet due to some communication breakdown, the message wasn't passed to Dr Goh. I went to the dentist on tuesday to know that i got to be admitted to the hopsital on 19th may. i need to go through all sorts of pre-operation checkup and i need to donate 2 units of my own blood to myself. I was also told the process of my surgery and the after effect of it. i was alone.

Huang Lao Shi asked me today. if i'm scared. 怕？你会怕吗？of course i will.. its afterall an operation. i'm scared. i'm afraid of the uncertainty. i'm afraid of what i'll be like or look like in the end. I dont really like major changes. only if im comfortable with it. but this uncertainty makes me very uncomfortable. i'm afraid people might not know or recognised me. i'm scared of the pain. i'm scared of the whole post-operation feeling.what if i turn to be depressed?? but.. so what if i'm scared? i still have to go for it.都已经走到这里了，不能回头了。。 it was never for looks.it was for my bitting. for my eating.. for my digestion... i cant live my life without chewing food. i'm not that brave. but i choose to be brave for once. i choose to be on my own.

我还是偶尔会想起你。hoping.wondering. imagining that you are here.

that we are still on talking terms, that we are still like how we used to be.

只是偶尔。。

not that often anymore..

after knowing that you actually go to the extend of ignoring my presence.

cutting all connections with me other than fb.

ha. what can i do?

nothing.

i've picked myself up. FATED! you too..人生短短几十年。不好的，不快乐的，就忘了吧！we shall all be happy together??!

inferior,自卑。。

i'm feeling that when i see everyone being accepted in uni.. when i see everyone around me, smart and "attractive".. when you find yourself, below average..........

我又累了。。。

2009-04-16T08:56:00.000-07:00

if i have a proper camera. these photos will be awesome! but im glad i catch a glimse of the sunset on the plane...

looking forward to another trip.. langkawi!!!

2009-04-01T11:20:00.000-07:00

finally i submitted the last supporting documents for application for local universities!

well today is quite packed. at least im not lazing at home. and allowing my mind to wonder around even though i resist.

i woke up at ard 11 plus. cause i was really tired. and left home at abt 1 plus to go to tpy to collect my contacts and photocopy those documents that im supposed to mail to smu. So immediately after i get my documents photocopied i went up to popular in hoping to get a envelope and a file to slot my documents in. And im damn amazed and pissed off too.. popular was temporary closed for like a few hours for stock taking.. it was ard 1 plus after lunch time.. so i was really wondering if why cant they do it after they close?? wad a weird timnig to do stock taking...

anyway i was pissed cause i've no file to slot my doc in. and so i have to replace it with some quite ugly file i have with me. luckily the post office have like envelopes to spare..YEAH finally im done with the application..

so right after that i went to the lib to pick up 1 book to read and borrowed...

den went for a meeting at outram park with xiang ling troupe.. the meeting is quite smooth going ..

jalyn laoshi and jiawei lao shi asked me to bring over lim cheeguan ba gua for their friends in taipei!

so after the meeting i went to town to meet sixuan! watch a movie. hotel for dogs quite funny but

spastic but its still quite a good relaxing movie to watch after a long day.

then we went over to herren for dinner.. the dinner was AWESOME!! its japanese food marche style! den later on was chit chatting at mac cafe!!! a great night out with her!! wohoo! we shld hangout more seriously! kinda look alike??? haha do we?? the rest of the cousins are guys and im not close to them too...

oh tmr theres driving in the morning.. den facial probably lunch with matt before that. and den at night theres emperor's rehearsal!

DEN! IM OFF TO TAIWAN!! EXCITED! IM GOING TO TAKE TONES OF PHOTOSS!! 1,000 facebook photos! wait for me!!

oh my mum gave me 200 bucks to spend for taiwan.. i paid the whole full expense myself and im so proud of myself to be affording this whole trip MYSELF!! and i got to pay penalty fees caz she cant go.. but wohoo!! haha and well probably im really very obedient lately?? THANKS MUMMY!!

2009-03-30T12:25:00.000-07:00

its 3.25am.. and im not sleeping. insomnia? i guess so..
but i just want to tire myself t the max so i can have a good sleep.

i just ended chatting with fated..
and to my surprised.....
what i have kept for quite some time.. always avoiding the topic or mentioning anything abt it...
i can now.. openly talk abt it. discuss about it...

a brand new start i guess.
but i just cant get over it yet..

probably one day.. i will really write it out.. publish it.. but he wont see..

2009-03-27T10:32:00.000-07:00

not updating again. but i doubt anyone reads.thats not the point. its just a medium for me to express myself..

i just came back from justin's 21 birthday party at SAF yacht club. the place is freaking ulu and FAR.. all the way to CHANGI but thank goodness we took yipeng's car and cg's van there. its a nice place actally. with all the small boats and yacht parked by the bay. yeah.. he got his boat license there so thus the place to organise his 21.its fun meeting up the rest of them, like a mini- gathering. even thou im not their batch but it doesnt seems that im left out of the gang. its quite cool and i really enjoy hanging ard with them. for supper and all.. the laughing, the little conversations... it does brings you out from your misery if you have any...

its going to be quite sad when time comes and some of them have to leave singapore to UK,US for their respective responsibility.??

the yacht club actually reminds me of someone with his boat liscense.. i remember that going out on the boat out to the sea is kinda a perfect date we used to talk abt..(never going to happen..sigh..)

im looking forward to a few things for the next few weeks or so..

1. taiwan TRip!!
2. Driving LESSONS!!!

2009-03-08T09:15:00.000-07:00

It’s been a while since the last entry and finally there is nothing much for me to do, so I have decided to revive this blog that I have forsaken for some time. Finally, 3 years of poly education ended and the years ahead seems so vague. I am completely clueless of where I will land up in or what should I do. Like a cross junction or somehow being trapped in this very gloomy room, no idea where the direction to head to is. It’s the feeling of emptiness and lost. And obviously I don’t like that feeling. I never liked coping with uncertainty btw, proven to me many times and recently I got to admit that because of the CCM project. Referring to CCM, it’s probably the only module that I remember after these 3 years of education and I’m able to apply it regardless of any situation, helps you understand yourself better actually and others. What about the rest of the things I’ve studied in school? Forgotten?? Yeah. Forgotten, but probably some trace of information or theory stuff is still in mind.

Anyway, this has been really quite dull after end of exams probably because I’m consciously and consistently reminded that I haven’t really make plans for the rest of the year or my future. Yesh, I am a very present oriented person. Probably someone with not much ambition too looking at the way I’m dealing with my life.

Actually, I’m quite amazed by myself. For the past few days and weeks I haven’t been really going out. Those few going out sessions would be to settle my trips overseas and then home. Even Yiling aka Louis said that it’s rare of me to be staying at home the whole day and not having a very happening life. Blah blah. Well its really true that I’ve been home feeling all bored and empty. Worst of all… I’m beginning to find no interest in going out of the house. Ahuh.. that’s quite bad right? No intention to like blogshop too! Ahuh.. Something is wrong. to add on no urge to go to club or arrange a meet up with people! I think I’m sick….

So I’m turning to become a loner…???!! You know.. 宅! Well… well… you might want to rescue me! :)

BUT! I’m still looking forward to a few trips with some people. Yeah firstly would be Taiwan with Yiling and Minwee! After all the changing we finally decide to go.. only the 3 of us and my mum cause she wants to tag along. TAIWAN IN APRIL..

And once I’m back the not so exciting thing would be operation. Which will probably happen towards the end of may. 18may that week. Sigh..

Then.. july… there’s the emperor’s production to be busy with.. took up the role as the asm for that. dun even know if I’m paid..anyway quite pack for sat and sun cause of all the rehearsals..

And the following months I’ve no idea.

2009-02-11T17:11:00.000-08:00

oh GWAD!! i really want to get out of the house!! it is totally CRAZY HERE!!! 8.30 and it STARTS DRILLING AND DRILLING!!ARGHHH!!!

lin need to study!! really need to STUDY!!! =(((( oh plsss!!!! STOP THE DRILLING!!!!!

2009-01-14T09:06:00.000-08:00

oh.. hullo new year! and my new love!! i am totally crazy over this man here... although he is in taiwan but still.. omgosh how did he take my heart away?!?! lol... anyway if anyone is free.. want to use your brains while watching a taiwan-serial... watch 霹雳MIT... awesome show..

anyway have been doing alot of reflections along the way.. taking things really lightly nowadays.. including projects.?? its either im too lazy if not ... something is wrong with me. besides that im really very tired about some stuff. and once its all over. i'll be a happier person....

2008-12-29T08:42:00.000-08:00

i was in KL for 3days 2 nights!! and OMGOSH!!! KL CRAZINESS!! love me pple! although its a small group and some pple cant go! but seriously love me for doing all the admin things for the trip!!!

into the closet!! great lights great models!

RANDOM SHOT while CAMWHORE-ing on the first night at ard 2am!!

SISTERHOOD and BROtherHOOD family photo in a family SUITE

huat's friend, kevin.

our next stop is PHUKET!! sistax and brothers lets PREPARE!! and for those dat didnt join us this time round!! you pple are MISSING OUT ALL THE FUN!

2008-12-23T08:53:00.000-08:00

Alright. i am damn shagged. and i can forsee that e start of next yr i am going to be so occupied with PROJECTS! damnit!!

and i cut my hand today..cause i was so careless when i pick up a blade.. its a terrible aweful cut that it keeps bleeding and bleeding. and all i could do was run to my maid and CRY for her HELP!!! it stink! its damn painful.

and ive got dental appointment tmr! NO!!! gulp...

the whole of next week is like packed until nobody's business.parties.gatherings.projects.kl trip. k-ing. hmmm what else?? i like to be occupied.. at least it wont make my mind wonder. its abt time to write new yr resolutions too..

well ive got no plans for new yrs eve.. will tat day be a stay at home day?? i seriously hope not! need to do something happening den.. WHAT?!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE~~!!!

2008-12-15T07:23:00.000-08:00

alright!! ~it has been quite some time since i posted an entry. not because i''m too busy to post.im just too lazy.but this few days have been so happening to me that its worth all the trouble to post this entry :))

if you are wondering what am i busy with these days.. well..

1.common test paper.(Although there is only two paper.íts hell of a irritant)

2. the business. eumora.

3. gatherings. meeting up.

4.SHopping.(online shopping. bugis shopping. club marc shopping..mng shopping!)EATING. SLACKING..

5. assignments. projects. interviews. research!

6. making more crystal angels for customers.

7. party! chilling! drinking!

and just this saturday.its IB Bondng day at the SAIL! the really porsh place that all of us agree. That is the picture of the whole lighted up night view of Singapore on the 44th floor of the condo the SAIL."the lion city"( gals if you guys are seeing this... you know where i quote from! )

people in the picture: Ms linda ng. xingting.nicholas.miss lim.yiling.mingjie.minwee.tricia.iok khai.jixian.peilin.elson.miss ho. clarinda.kristal.yanhui.mike and of course me!

by the pool.. dreamy me... and they really love my "ËMO" shirt!

big-faced peiling and ME! and as i les with clarinda becaz cehui wasnt there......
a really nice picture taken by mike the pro photographer..You see the markers and spencer plastic bags? WE are the lucky 3!

well lots of photo taken! and thats tricia and me!

Good lightings good photo! you see that christmas sock.. i took the photo.. this is an artisitc photo.. the object is not in the center of the picture:)) proud!! well the christmas sock is just so CUTE!!!

Well minwee and i just love the STAR!!! and thats a random photo taken too!

we are the proud ones that prepared the food! and thats me acting pro!! love this pic lots! artistic! haha

well.. i really had lots of fun that day.Even though not everyone is there but its definately a good bonding session. We won't ever forget the game THE CIRCLE of DEATH!

and on thursday.. my class and i went for steamboat at bugis! and after that a few of us went to shisha! right first time trying.. andi got a pink nice tube :))

and this was taken on yiling's bday.. the one and only class photo with everyone in it!

thats about all. that happens since the start of dec..

well ever since im back i dun really know what is happening to the people around me. or its because i have changed..or because there is an invisible wall that i didnt realise till recently between some people and its just tough to break that wall..sigh.. that really makes me feel even more like closing myself up..

i know very well that some feelings i have... didnt change.. but... the relationship between us changed so drastically that right now.. you seem so far. drifted away. just like strangers.. i want to get back to what it is... back there... away from everything...

2008-11-14T06:09:00.000-08:00

its friday night and im home alone. dad and mummy went to sis's graduation night.. and im juz too lazy and tired to get out of the hse... nt because i have no life or i got no activities!! haha..

anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PINKIE!~aka WEIYING!
have fun at arena.. sorry that i cant make it..

finally completed the interim report for IB and a few other things.. presentation and so on... in another 6 days time.. its BIRTHDAY!! i wonder whats going to happen.. hopefully hopefully i dun have to go back to sch for PPP.. since 22 falls on a satuday.. and PPP lessons have to be on saturdays.. oh wells..

i was doing some minor eflections.(becaz my brain isnt working on anything in relation to sch work) my days beings a 18 have been dealing with alot of emotional matters... i'll elaborate further.. but it juz make me feel so sedimental..

dun walk away like that... caz i sank...

2008-11-08T06:01:00.001-08:00

random day out with EMILY and shu shu!! but shuang is not there! ahyar!!

Huitian's 21st birthday party!!

my blog is really dead huh.. oh wells... im in no mood to blog anyway.. juz want to have a place to leave some things behind?!

sch is really hectic.. but im happier in a way it kept me very occupied.. just that sometimes my mind will just wonder off.. and its when you start thinking about"if"... and den you will come up with alot of things that doesnt really make sense to you..

anyway. went clubbing ytd at double O.. super tiring! im kept coughing into pple's face.. im super sorry for that.. i've learnt my lesson.. never club when you have a cough or a flu.. anyway had fun and happy birthday to antonio.

2008-10-19T08:29:00.000-07:00

to those that have been laughing at me ever since i told you pple that i got pushed by a fat asshole and i fell.. you are so evil and heartless caz none of you bother to ask if im alright!!

hk class is extremely tiring today.. reason being.. today is intensive training on how to act well day! am going crazy!!今天天气很好！

okiee. school totally is stressful.. my first week of lectures have been revolving around GLOBALISATION! yesh globalisation is a series of process of deeper international economics integration that involves the transaction of goods and services across boundaries, it also includes financial transactions across countries and shift in production and consumption across countries.

and it continues........

alright. the next whole week will be extremely tiring and hectic for sure.. firstly have to stage voices of the gramophone. then of course piority goes to school.. tutorials and reading of lectures and continue to be a hardworking, obedient girl. and den sunday will be partying at big huitian's 21st!

busy hectic week ahead... and im blogging about it.. haha... i never ever blog abt such things before...what am i trying to imply or hide?? am i finding ways to be busy so i can forget abt some things?? mmm.. for me to know for you to find out...

2008-10-11T10:06:00.000-07:00

Have i ever mentioned that 4e2 is the best united CLASS? and because of this class my secondary school life is still so memoriable?? and keeping so much in contact with this group of pple..And we being the only class that has like occasional gatherings.. even though some pple cant make it but we make the effort to come and all.. oh my gwad.. 4e2 is so loved..

2008-09-30T23:43:00.000-07:00

HAPPY CHILDRENS DAY!! :)
HAPPY HARI RAYA!!

public holiday.
a day to not work.
and slack at home.
did some packing too.. my table is in a mess. the drawers are totally messy as well..
anyway came across finding some new songs to add in the the playlist.
the script.jason mraz. daniel powter.blah..jay chou..

jay chou's newest album is out.. go and buy it or download frm online.. its good music. one song to recommend.
<<失落非主流>>
你的绘画凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.
情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.
时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了.
怎麽了.
你累了.
说好的.
幸福呐
我懂了.
不说了.
爱淡了.
梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.
我都还记得
你不等了.
说好的.
幸福呐
我错了.
泪干了.
放手了
后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.
要怎么停呢

nice song. nice song.

2008-09-30T10:03:00.000-07:00

yes.. I'm dead tired.. mainly because I'm working for the whole of this and next week. and my office is extremely far from home that i have to change 3 buses just to get there.have to wake up damn early too. 52 to sch. 151 into NUS and internal shuttle bus to my office. WTH.well at least it keeps me very occupied.. though i felt tied down by this full time temp job.. but on the account that ill get money in the end. cant really be bothered about what I'm feeling. which somehow i feel ashamed about this whole money sense thing. always trying to convince myself that I'm going to work and do something that i like.. and what am i doing now?! something that I'm bored after working for 1 day. and i got to drag myself to the office.

well that's not the main point of this blog.. i had a very random meeting with a future doctor, a future architect and a future teacher.. haha well julio.min.and shuang. yup randomly we just went out have dinner.catch up abit. and of course camwhore too.

anyway QNT has a meeting last sunday.. F1 race day.. im not going to touch on F1 cause i bet alot of people have been blogging about race day.. well before the QNT meeting, some of us gathered ard to brainstorm for ideas.. we had lots of ideas.. but how to put them together. theres alot of thoughts going through my mind everytime when it comes to discussion about ideas.. expression is important but i cant really do it.

Everyone wants to be "rape."

rape as in wanting their life to be seen. to be recognised. to want others to know how they feel thru a damn indirect field.. want others to know what they do. pity you. concern for you. get angry for you. sacrifice for you? cry for you? envy you? happy for you. sad for you. you, yourself know this..

this hit me straight on the face. when we were discussing about an idea from liting about a stalker.blogs.life.

sets me thinking again...

the man who cant be moved.

what am i trying to put across??

i, myself admit that..

2008-09-26T09:26:00.000-07:00

Was browsing through jasper's(the next batch that already went to Guilin) blog, facebook and he left me a msg on msn..telling me how the guys are in Guilin..while browsing throu the photos that he posted online.. it really sets me reminising the past.the 6 months that i spent there with the rest..my les.candy.eugene and chin.i miss the place. i miss the bench.i miss swimming in the river.i really do. i miss xiaofengjie and eric too..
and right now when we are all back. things have changed quite drastically isn't it.an we arent spending every single day together.. when i open my eyes.. i wont see you..we care less about each other.we are pratically too busy too tired to be asking each other whats happening since we are back. and we hardly have the time to even hang out..deep down in you.. do you really miss those times when we are there??
spend some time answer that question.. all 5 of us have undergo so much there.. and i believe those times we spend there together we cant possible forget about it that easily..

oh anyway.. im going to start work next week! wonderful.. im packed at last.. my little crystal angel business is going quite smooth.. i'm not promoting that much.. but i will soon. with the help of some pple :))

i went out with jiv ytd.. and yeah.. shared quite alot of things.. anyway he drove me ard in his brother's BMW sports car.. whoa.. F1 racing fever.. i really felt it!

2008-09-12T05:05:00.000-07:00

friday..
home alone boring friday..
why is it boring???
im home alone..

my sister out to tuition..
my parents out to pa tor..

and today..
my whole block. whole building... whole house...
no electricity..
why?
upgrading of the lift..
so theres a notice outside the lift that i never notice it at all..
you are suppose to notice it thats why its called a notice board..
so i stayed in the house without electricity...
from 9am to 4 plus pm...

not only you experience no electricity in china..
you also experience it in singapore okie?

you see how bored i am...

2008-09-10T04:41:00.000-07:00

23 ways to make a girl SMILE!!
(its simple!)
1 . Tell her she is beautiful, not hot, fine or sexy.
2 . Hold her hand at any moment even if it is just for a second.
3 . Kiss her on the forehead.
4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5 . Always tell her you love her at any and all times.
6 . When she is upset hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
7 . Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
8 . Call her sweety. {not baby}
9 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is.
10 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.
11 . Write her notes. {she loves them}
12 . Introduce her to family and friends as your girlfriend.
13 . Play with her hair.
14 . Pick her up, tickle her and play-wrestle with her.
15 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.
16 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes.
17 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.
18 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.
19 .Bring her Flowers just because.
20 .Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.
21 . Look her in the eyes and smile.
22 . Kiss her in the rain.
23 . If you're in love with her . . . Tell her.

2008-09-08T07:07:00.000-07:00

SIMPLE!!!
DUMP HER AND GO AFTER ME!!!

*im joking... sorry for being mean.. opps

2008-09-07T00:05:00.000-07:00

an extremely boring sunday... huiguan having term break this week.. so no lessons...
sigh... bored... i've been at home this few days for a very specific reason...
no more wisdom tooth!! its out! and because of this 4 wisdom teeth...i look like puffer fish.. swollen mouth... went through poking of needles.. inserting tubes.. blah blah... thats my left hand.. it looks abit swollen... i don't know why. but the other time i was on drip( in china) my hand look something like that... and worst of all.. liquid food.. or soft food.. porridge..soup... its like a torture... im losing weight!! =))

that plate of food... is the minced.. chopped version of the fishcake....

sob... life is never fun without good food.... i want to EAT!!!

2008-08-30T20:08:00.000-07:00

ahuhh~ finally!!~ well well.. its been 2 weeks since i've returned... and on friday its primary school peeps gathering.. of course we have alot of fun.. at glasshouse fish&co (the ideal place for a gathering that night) and indochine (clubbing without the enterance fees)...

val. chelsea and jancy! :))

this is my scandal, mag.val and me.

left:yangkai,shawn,ronald,ernest,justin,jake,mingyi,jordan,hweizhong,mag,shiwei,val,chelsea,me and jancy..

and in this yr this gathering.. mag and shawn brought someone special:))

hey.. the next gathering.. lets bring all our special ones.

the 6h peeps of ats 2001. haha its been a long time....

2008-08-26T07:55:00.000-07:00

can i say.. i miss them alot!! hello!! im BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!! urghhh.. i miss camwhore with them...

2008-08-25T07:22:00.001-07:00

this is definitely worth blogging...
something is wrong.. very wrong today..
first....
as usual.. i went for my usual dental appointment..
where i get to change the coloured rubber bands and clean my braces..

and yet.. of all dental appointments.. today has to be something special.....
ive got a cut on my lips right now.. cause my dentist accidentally cut it...
ive got to remove my 4 wisdom tooth next week...
and becaz of that i went for blood test..
went for xray..
and paid super LUMP sum of money for it...

and when i get home...
i slept cause i felt feverish..
yesh i was running a temperature...
and when i woke up..
i have no idea whats wrong with my phone..
it suddenly auto-restarted itself..
probably my phone caught my flu virus thats why it needs to go to see a doctor..
yar so right now.. my phone is admitted to the hospital..
and it will only be discharged next week..
how wonderful...

and now you see how i hate today...urghh totally sucks!

the following is just rubbish language..

and i need a cuddle. a hug.
i totally miss you...

2008-08-19T06:11:00.000-07:00

IM HOME!!!

yes finally home after 6 months.
and Singapore has changed so much..
hey im a SINGAPOREAN!!!
been out this few days..
sunday was the first time i went to town.
and bishan mrt station changed so much.. before i left it was still renovating..
then i went to marina square...( i called tze to ask for directions.. i forgot how to go marina.. alright laugh all you one.. such a joker i am.. i know that..)
i felt damn weird looking at singaporeans.. but after a while it got better...
singapore flyer! its damn pretty..
and monday i went back to sch.. so glad to see everyone... back to school to hand up my report. eww.. finally its done too..
but after that, damn i got really bored.. theres nothing much to do..
i guess i need to find a job..
if not theres not much motivation...
theres no goal or anything to look forward to actually..
other than my friends here of course..

well here are come photos when i left my resort.
the room that i always live in.. lots of memories filled.. we will never forget these nice people in the resort..the extremely bubbly XIAO FENG JIE!!!

this is the "nong Jia fan" auntie that we always go to whenever we are hungry.. she is the one that supplies our daily need of snacks, milk, fried egg rice and nice veggies... and the kids that always played around with us.. the little pink dress girl has the same name as my cousin.. sixuan..

this is the auntie that i helped to wash dishes for.. the one in Pink is name "purple" cause the first day of work, we saw her wearing purple boots.. and she is the cutest girl in the whole resort.. the one in white is one of the chef in the kitchen that cooks the best chilli i ever tasted!

this guy.. he loves to drink.. and when he got drunk he is damn funny...

here.. is jian xiong.. the one that always bring us to canyon in his motobicycle.
and xiao ming.. one of the better looking recreational department staff.

and MACHO MAN!!! he got 6 paxs!

this guy here.. i "rob" him alot of times.. caz he is the finance department head...

well thats all.. about the whole resort. and the people i work with for the past 6 months.. next update will be about SHANGHAI!!!~

2008-08-10T07:31:00.000-07:00

finally end of attachment!!!
and right now im in SHANGHAI!!!
living like a queen, eating like a queen...
and all thanks to Xiu Zhen Ah Yi!!!~
she got her personal chaffauer...
she goes in to each restaurant and all the people will greet her...
she has such a beautiful house that is in the middle of something like orchard road in singapore..
and whats best is im enjoying every moment of it!!!

2008-08-03T04:38:00.000-07:00

the last week is normally the hardest week to pass yet there are so many things happening around the resort that makes us too lazy and too busy to pack our bags or even clean the room!!!

tomorrow the BIG boss is coming. and we got to prepare the vip rooms for them.. and i guess we have to entertain them too.. but what we look forward is dining with the BIG BOSS!!

and here we are counting down to the days that we leave the resort. and of course leave GUILIN!!!~

2 more days till we leave the resort.
4days to SHANGHAI!!~
4days to back to SINGAPORE for the rest of them!

and irritating chinwoo is telling all of us how he is going to spend his first night in singapore...

and candy can get all the yam paste she wants and watch ndp fireworks...

as for eugene... he can wonder around the whole airport all he wants...

and sinyee and me will be stuck in nanning for another night! -_-''

2008-07-26T20:32:00.000-07:00

brand new skins! brand new look!wonderful! it always take me alot of time to change my whole blogskin but this time its extremely fast cause right now my blog looks simple and plain. white is a calm colour. thats the colour of my sky right now.:)) thats the colour that explains what am i feeling. emotionless.

still counting down to the days back home.
13 days to end of attachment
14 days to shanghai
:))

and because all of us are going to leave this place so soon.
we really want to "play" this place alot..
enjoy the freedom that we have..
THEME PARK THEME PARK!!!

and because all of us are going to leave this place so soon.
it really sets people thinking.
thinking and thinking......

2008-07-23T23:50:00.000-07:00

14 days till the end of attachment!!!~ home for the other 3 while my les and i will be going to shanghai!!wahahaaaa!!!

zoom* zoom* zoom*
time flies and 6 months passed..
not too long.. not too short..
soon we will be back home..
getting back to our own lifes.. our comfort zone..
busy with our own lifes..
catching up with those things that we missed..

will you missed whatever that you do here?
going for a swim in the crystal clear pool of water beside a majestic waterfall..
missed the Dan Chao Fan that Nong Jia Fan cooked for us for meals?
miss those damn cheap meals that we always eat whenever we go to town?
miss jiao zi?? miss Bao? miss Cuan Cuan?? miss steak house?

miss those carefree days that we have nothing to do except watch buffy the whole day and night?

miss those times that we sleep till we missed lunch?

miss those long talks we have?

miss those walks that we take in the night?

miss the starry starry night that is so nice to just stone out of the room?

miss the scenery that we see every morning we wake up?

will you?? you and you??

2008-07-01T06:33:00.000-07:00

you kind souls might be wondering what am i doing over here.. its the 1st of july. and im left with another month and 8 more days to the end of attachment! WALLA!!~ and then travel to shanghai and back home..

since theres only 1month plus left over here.. in guilin,china.. if some doesnt remember or even forget... i am pratically going to and have already been shopping and eating like its FREE!!

you see theres NO 7% GST, NO 10% SERVICE CHARGE. what price on the menu is what price you get off your bill excluding those irritating extra charges!! everything here is CHEAP CHEAP Cheap! im turning into a chicken!!

anyway just a little update here..

i went to yangshuo, part of the guangxi province... out of guilin town. well this place is a tourist attraction. and if you people would like to find out more about this place.. its beautiful.. mountains..river.. serene environment...and if you search this place online. you might come across the legendary women called liu san jie. if you never watch liu san jie in yangshuo means you never been to yangshuo.. thats what they say... and with this whole stretch of road called the west street( the reason behind it is because there you could find alot of bars, pubs and cheap shopping and most of all you can find lots of caucasian theres.. and of course not forgetting good food! ) so heres a small trip for you guys into the beautiful yangshuo....enjoy...

if you are wondering what is this? we went on the bamboo ride.. and well beauiful sceneries... with pretty girls =)

the west street: and good food!!!

well.. we dont always get to have fun you know...we work our ass off here too.. well sometimes only... =))

2008-06-15T03:35:00.000-07:00

something is very wrong with me..

from when did it started??

dunno..

but then i think its happening again.... =))

how nice...

2008-06-09T21:18:00.000-07:00

you know sometimes a person really need some assurance in order to feel secure and just a tinkling sense of happiness and joy.
i bet you feel the same way too.

im really missing alot back home.
reading those blogs really makes me feel envious. jealous and totally LEFT OUT!! usually if someone feels this way. they would whine and grabbing some attention den would really want time to pass fast enough in just a click so that they can go back home and be involved in it again. or just someone to update them about the things happening back home so to make them feel worthy and important.

well what im feeling now is totally the opposite. since ive left my comfort zone paying so much money coming over to complete strange place. i wont want to return that early. im going to have my own fun and freedom exploring whatever i have here.. why go back to the place so quickly, that fills me up most of the time with lots of restrictions and problems?!

well.. we all are on our own most of the time.. bus rides.. on the way home.. its unavoidable to make friends with mr "alone" isnt it? im handling quite well with him.. my relationship with him have changed.. we are probably good friends now...

so people.. as my visa is extended till september.. you wont see me till then.. and by then.. lots of things will change and that includes me..

2008-06-04T18:55:00.000-07:00

you might be wondering. how come im updating so often in fact almost everyday. basically its because theres good internet here in town with lots of GOOD FOOD! anyway the weather is damn freaking HOT!

when ever im in town.its sinful. man.. GOOD FOOD here COMES: WOHOHOO~ PIZzAHuT!

'CheeSy ChEeSy ChEeSy WoOts~~

Stuff-Crust Pizza Supreme!!~!!

MEat Balls~ Garlic Bread!~ Squid Rings~!!! Potato Salad!~ DAMN!!~

Don't Drool...... :))
well well.. this is what happened to a HUNGRY ME!! i can eat EVERYTHING!!! including the not very classy plates of PIZZA HUT! =) actually.. they taste really sweet:))

ahuh.. if you all have notice... i've change my specs.. yesh changed it in China.. of course at a damn cheap rate as well... first camwhore with those nerd specs.. how i look??

just right after dinner.. when we were shopping..... we came across this cute little "thing"...

cute little thingy huh? well.. its is sold for 200rmb which is $40 singdollar, just along the streets animals can be sold just like that...

YEAH!! lin you jia's CD is OUT!!! woooh wooh woohh woots!!

2008-06-03T23:09:00.000-07:00

Being away from home, away from the comfort zone for such a long period of time is already quite a thrilling experience for me. what made this whole lot of experience even more worth remembering is being sick in this foreign country.
its been 3 months here in Guilin, China. Hiccups along the way isn't that of a surprising thing.
i was admitted to the hospital here in Guilin..one of the best hospital in guilin.. which offers me A class wards that i got to pay 25000RMB for, which totally look like a 4 star hotel room... like what ive mention being sick overseas is extremely scary.. because right here. the way they diagnores your illness. you will be in doubt and it just doesn't stop you from wondering if that DOCTOR has liscenses. like in the hospital in HuaJian(a small little part of Guilin).. i had very terrible stomache and went there to see the doctor... after doing an examination, the doctor said that ive got some INTESTINE problem and i need to go for an OPERATION! WAD?! NO WAY am i going to have a operation man! who knows if the equipments they use will kill me with pain.. maybe they don't even have anesthestic.. and i have to suffer the pain of slicing my stomach and the pulling of intestine!! ewww.. its damn gross...and to let you all know.. the nurses and doctors in China only knows how to put people on DRIPS. im sure that the nurses are taught different ways to insert the needles into veins so as to minimise the pain. or those nurses have to go through levels of lessons just to know how to put patients on drips!!9 out of 10 people who walk into the hospital will end up having a drip! a patient with a broken leg has to be put on drips. whatever illness its DRIPS!! and throughout my days in one of the best hospital in Guilin, i was of course on drips that i lost count of the number of bottles i drip. i only remembered being on drip for the whole day since 5am till 8pm in the night.. more than 10 HOURS!! powerful huh?
recently, sinyee went for a drip. well thats because she was unwell.. and in this hospital that we went. there were long poles hanging down( like the ones in the picture). this is where the bottles of drips are hang.. and then you sit on the chair( those that sinyee and i are sitting) and you wait for your bottle of drip to end.....

a word of advice: when you are away from the place call HOME.. PLEASE take GOOD CARE of yourself...

2008-05-31T22:20:00.001-07:00

2nd of June..
haven been blogging at all since the last entry...
Yes! i'm still stuck in China...
nothing much happened..
still the usual me...
just getting a bit sick and tired...

a part of me doesn't want my attachment to end early...
a part of me wants time to quickly pass and get over and done with it...

i'm missing alot of things back at home...
production. family.friends. lots of things...

but... theres good food here.... all this is FREAKING CHEAP!!! good western food.. mac! and woots!!~

2008-05-07T19:59:00.000-07:00

been quite some time right? been quite some time didnt update already.. well.. im still in china.. alive and kicking.. its been very bored... summer is here.. things are changing around.. im the same but things are not the same...

2008-03-27T04:25:00.001-07:00

sigh.......
my com crash....
and candy is eating cup noodles beside me...
which smells super nice....

faints....
my com crash....
and im playing wahjong right now......
which is super fun.....

haizz....
my com crash.....
and i duno what to do now......
which im super bored......

huhh....
my com crash....
and im using sinyee's one noww...
which i promise to be gentle with......

oohhhhh.....
my com crash.....

2008-03-12T07:42:00.000-07:00

out of 10 people in china.. 10 people are smoking..
im coughing alr...
the air here is terrible....
smokey, hazey and terrible...
almost everyone in the office smokes....
2nd hand smoking...
im so going to die early...
emo..

2008-03-09T08:40:00.000-07:00

woots!! i finally can blog alr!! hahaa.. im in guilin!! for those people that care.. im really fine here... its super freezing cold here and im wearing alot!!like 4 to 5 shirts plus sweaters!! haha.. im in guilin shi now thats why the internet connection is so good that i can BLOG! haha...

the resort is nice.. the food is well oily.. (its china!) and its always veggie for all 3 meals.. so basically the guys here are always craving for meat! the scenery is very pretty but sighh its becaz of the snow disaster that made all the bamboos ugly... topples downwards.. some are even broken.. quite sad though to see such a sight...

i did many fun stuff.. like absailing beside a waterfall,rock climbing, going to the canyon, atv motor rides.. and i guess there will be more coming....

my work place not that bad i guess.. its quite slack now though.. soon when summer arrives its going to be very different....

i miss everyone in singapore... but im really doing very well... i wan to continue travelling in china before i go back home... and well ive matured more... =)

2008-02-29T02:37:00.000-08:00

im really glad that i still get to meet people before i fly off for 6 months....说长。。6个月也不算长。。说短。。6个月也不算短!

i stayed at home ytd packing things and having dinner with my family..im so sorry for not meeting up with dishan and the rest. but ytd i really felt like staying at home.. so sorry. i just want to stay at home slack watch tv and yar.. like talk to my sister and my parents even though they are always nagging about going china.. oh well parents!! but its good to stay at home.. i just felt this way...

anyway i got this really empty feeling right now.. im lost.. like how yiling feel.. im feeling the same as her too..sighh...

alright today went to meet sandra for kbox haha.. its been a long time since i sing.. haha.. and guess what.. im coughing.. gulp... pls dun get sick when in china!! jialat one leh!!

den went to meet ming and mag for dinner. talking about those two.. thanks my scandal for the choc.. i will bring over to china! hearts.. thanks.. and talking about ming.. he changed alot... anyway.. if dude you are seeing this.. den good luck to you with her okie!? and dun smoke so much larr! bad for health.. okie i sound like a mum... haha... thanks for the hugs too!! im sure going to miss you and mag.. and if justin comes back sae hello from china! den must say 你好! for me okie?! haha

oh yeh! forget to thank also:
esther. laoda.christie.debbie.lavina.xiyao.zhuzheng. and william for the cookies. choc. im bringing over to china too!!ｔｈａｎｋｅｗ　ｖｅｒｙ　ｍｕｃｈ．

2008-02-27T04:08:00.000-08:00

to comprehend the value of one year,

just ask the students who failed their entrance exams.

to comprehend the value of one month,

just ask a mother who gave birth to a premature baby.

to comprehend the value of one week,

just ask the editor of the weekly newspaper.

to comprehend the value of one hour,

just ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

to comprehend the value of one minute,

just ask the people who missed their stop on the train.

to comprehend the value of one second,

just ask,

the person who managed to avoid an accident just in time.

to comprehend the value of one tenth of a second,

just ask a person who ended up with a silver medal at the olympics.

the hands of the clock

will continue ticking.

therefore,

treasure every moment you have

and treat today

as the utmost gift you'll have.

-kamenashi kazuya- <3

2008-02-26T00:02:00.000-08:00

time is flying..
things are happening too fast...
too fast to react even..
im at home today..but later on im out again....
flying off in another few more days time...
in the midst of packing....
this feeling inside me is very confusing.....
i juz dunno how to explain...

im sick...coughing..

oh yar i rebonded my hair =))
meet up with lots of people after exams...
jiv,nigel,eunice,ana,carol,moe..
mayee and taymin..
sixuan...
Char...
yuxuan..zhenhan..tzehui...
fizah..fangqi..xingting..minwee..
matthew..felle.filzah..supermodel bitch huat.. fred...
theres more to comee...

im sure going to miss them... =((

改版了！鸽子终于改版了！等了那么久，你终于改版了！超开心的！我要鸽子的改版专辑！终于可以买了！天啊!杨宗纬5月又要再发专辑了！又有杨宗纬的新歌可以听了！超期待的！

林宥嘉也要发行他的第一张个人专辑了！也是在5月！
林宥嘉的个人演唱会也是在5月开唱！
5越快点来!!!~

2008-02-16T02:36:00.000-08:00

im cursing and swearing at "you"!!! why do "you" have to be so difficult to handle??! whats wrong with *you*!!! now i cant get an "A"are you happy about it?! i used to enjoy lectures with "you"and pay attention to "you"!! and make the effort to memorize "your" important stuff!! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME!!!!~~~~~ i always treat "you" so well.. lost my beauty sleep because of "you"!!!! WHYYY!!!~~~forget it.. this cant continue... lets breakup!! i DON'T wan to see "you" anymore next semester!! get LOST!!!~

well well.. you might be wondering which idiot broke my heart just a few days after valentine day.firstly this was how i spend 14 feb 2008... i dated MR CMA and BLAW this yr.. and spend my "romantic" pencil-pen light dinner with them... MR CMA still loves me....."he" gave me "his" blessing.. thats so sweet... and so you know who is the heartless freak that broke my fragile heart...

haha alright enough of craps. its a way to destress. i realise im very tensed up because of exams. and im really counting down to leaving the country for that attachment. but the main focus is still on exams... 2 papers left to go. and at least a week after exams before flying off...

complains complains...
the blaw paper sucks to the core! theres so much to write and so little time to finish.. 2 hours 6 questions even the short ans questions are at least half a page.. 10 marks per question in sec A do you expect me to write a few lines?!! alright have to optimistic.. i WONT FAIL!! probably a "B".. but there goes my confident "A" paper :((.... sighh.. stupid blaw... damn it.. waste my sleeping time studying for it...

almost everyone knows im going to china for the 6 months attachment.. and guess how much subsidies did the school give.. its stingy and little and whats worst is IT CANT COVER MY AIRTICKET COST!!! with addition to my allowance im still unable to cover my airtix cost and i probably need to spend more!! and now the sch is subsidising me at a such a RATE!! hello... ngee ann you are rich can... can you juz give me more subsidy??!! plss??? spend less on FOC lar!! student union is so rich!!

anyway.. ytd right after cma paper... walked down the stairs and i SAW timonthy!!! woots.. haha eyyeee canddyyy!! i hardly see him in school and seeing him is like a miricle... thats luck!! ive got very good luck ytd!!:))
(sixuan: ill let you see his pic one day!! haha okie!?)

ytd had another good chat with sixuan.. haha and we are going on a date after her A levels... shhh.... cant really say much here..sirong has my blog addresss.. (you are damn resourceful... does your sister know of your blog??!! ) i better not say what type of date we are going.. if not later auntie sherlyn(she might be resourceful as well and find this blog..) will think that im teaching her daughter bad stuff.....

im slacking im really slacking... but welll you noe the laptop misses me... its turning dusty.. ive left it unattended for more than a week!! wooh!! so a whole afternoon viewing blogs... checking emails... watching videos... this is LIFE!!

i want to change my blogskin after EXAMS!!! alright im off to "fight a battle" with the last two paper!!

2008-02-09T05:37:00.001-08:00

im seriously screwed.this few days i didnt touch any books, notes whatever that i need to prepare for the final exams.. all becaz of cny.but well.. cny isnt that bad. at least i manage to give myself an excuse to sleep more, eat more and of course get out of the house to have fun.

cny eve:
i cant really remember what happened that day.. i just knew i wasted time watching tv and went for dinner at liang court "long fong" restaurant. 18 years of my life, this was my first time eating reunion dinner outside. the food was okie but not fantastic. its suppose to be fantastic... but well 600 plus over tables eating the same food rushing for time.. i pity the chiefs... mass production food just arent as tasty..it didnt seem like a reunion dinner as well.. the mood wasnt there.. we were eating in a ballroom instead( the restaurant is too small to squeeze 600 plus over tables... so it seems like we were attending a wedding dinner instead of a reunion dinner) anyway "jiu ma" came back from naning." gor gor" came back from shanghai. my mum is too lazy to cook so thats mainly the reason why we had our reunion dinner outside.. and after reunion dinner.. i went home and watched more TV!! sinful..... :p

CNY 初一：
my mum woke me up super early for breakfast.. we had homecooked vegetarian food. yummy..the food was good! so straight after breakfast the whole family was rushing to bathe, change and get prepared to go 拜年！went to my neighbours place first to greet them and have a chat for only a while den the whole family rushed our way down to "ahma's" house.. waited "gor gor" and "jiu ma" to come. and recieved ang bao from them =p.. its speacial this yr.. i had this very special ang bao with RMB500 insides..(RMB500 its my one month allowance in guilin!) the whole world knows im going to china! so that mainly the reason why i get more money in my angbao than my sister.. den went over to uncle song place.. and bump into auntie susan, uncle joe, auntie mary, uncle ric, eric, uncle john, auntie may, auntie betty and the people living at uncle song's place.. had the best vegetarian bee hoon there..( i always like the beehoon there!! its good! )and when it was about time to go.. auntie mary asked me when am i flying to china!! ??HMM?? how she knows?? well thanks to my grandma for spreading the news to auntie mary!!! so after uncle song's place.. it was my dad's godma's place.. by den i was exhausted!! after that we went back to "ahma's" house.. oh gosh.. this time i was really awake!! we had our personalized liondance!!! it was loud, noisy but fun.. cny what! its the tradition... haha.. so i stayed at ahma's place for quite some time.. was intending to at least do some studying at ahma's place when the people "clear" themselves.. but well i didnt study much.. meet my cousins there. but was closer to sixuan.had a few words with sixuan.and off she go for another visiting..only uncle john and auntie may, uncle song, auntie alice stayed. you see i didnt study becaz i was playing with siew wei and yihang.. haha yihang came into the room and saw me looking at my notes.. so he asked
"what are you doing ar?"
"me? im studying."
"why you studying ar?"
"i having exams next week."
"orh.."
haha i also dunno if he understand what i say.. but throu this conversation its obvious that he keeps asking why! thats so cute.. den he started pressing the calculator.. and he asked AGAIN.
"what is this ar?"
"its a calculator. it counts for you.. like what is 1+1??"
he didnt really ans me but went on pressing numbers.. and he started asking me what is the sum of the numbers that he pressed.. haha.. he is so cute.. whenever i ans him he goes "WAH!"as for siew wei, she primary 1 so simple calculations she can do quite well.. so while playing with them... tats when the liondance troupe came back.. why did they come back?? the reason is those people are so cute that after recieving an angbao of $40 instead of their quoted price $18.. they came back to give us another lion dance show!! haha..
this was weird.. so i went out of the room with siew wei and yihang.. well yihang was petrified.. im serious.. he was scared.. he kept asking his mum
"mummy why they come back? mummy why they come back?"
and when i asked him
"yihang you scared??"
he simply nodded.. poor yihang.. he was so afraid that whenever i release my hand when i was hugging him.. he pulled it back to his chest again..so i helped him covered his ears during the lion dance show.. and when the lion dance moved to the left.. we moved to the right.. haha he is so cute!!

right after that.. everyone was fasinated with the numbers that the liondance troupe arranged.. well the adults were suppose to buy 4D and win BIG money!! after the big show.. collected more angbao's we moved on to another destination and thats uncle yong's place.. heard from the adults he moved to a HDB flat.. well i didnt expect it to be small.. in fact its squeezy.. manage to catch up more with sixuan.. and left after a while so went over to "ahbeh" house.. had dinner. the food was good! i enjoyed it... den went over to my cousin's new house.. (newly wed..) and played a few rounds of mahjong.. den it was home sweet home..

cny 初二：
woke up super early again.. went visiting like free.. 大姑，阿姨，my godma's place, auntie mary's place, auntie sherilyn's place ( which is also sixuan's place), den was dinner at amk, den was slacking at big uncle's place.. singapore is so small... 2 days and ive went to almost every parts of singapore! ( im joking!! but almost!! ) anyway had a shocked when i reached godma's place! gosh! THERES A DOG! not that i dun like dogs but im juz afraid of those big ones! but well max was obedient. had a great conversation with godma... hearing how she complain about ian gor gor's newly wed wife.. its just so funny... haha well my godma is juz a perfectionist lar.. she damn 难搞.. ahemm.. so after godma's place i went home for a while before heading down to auntie mary's place.. haha we had good food there as well.. sausages and mutton CURRY!! the mutton curry was DELICIOUS!! yummy... thick and good.. not too spicy.. =)) [china no curry! =( ] was listening to the conversation between auntie mary and mymum about buddhism.. and was listening to eric about teaching in beijing!! ( if i go to beijing can like go find him! haha lets see!) and msg-ing sixuan.. well we had pretty much to talk abt this time around. interesting conversation... =) den i went over to her place which is auntie's sherilyn's place.. and as for the rest of the conversation it shall remain as a secret... shhh* in case any adults we know gets to see this.... shhhhh* silence...**

cny 初三：
today!! okie woke up later than the previous 2 days! which is GOOD! very good!! excellant!! sleep is good!! made our way into malaysia and visit uncle alan and family.. had a simple lunch and off to visit uncle alan's brother... and out we go.. by the time we reached singapore becaz of the causeway jam.. it was around dinner time.. so went to hougang for black pepper crab and home sweet home..

after not touching my books, notes, whatever that i have to prepare for the past 3-4 days.. todae i shall touch them.. not literally touch them!! but start/ continue REVISING!!!!

well tmr im going 团拜.. another long day!! alright..

新年快乐！万事如意！身体健康！学业进步！恭喜发财！

2008-02-01T21:10:00.000-08:00

its almost time...

and that fear...
it comes and go...
its such a complicated, confused feeling...

anyway have been really busy with things happening in school and out of sch...
i doubt i will enjoy cny this yr...
theres exams after cny...
the terrible feeling of "something" dangling down there..

did my visa...
met the managing director of guilin resort..
its snowing in china...
bet it will be freezing cold when we are there as well...

exams are around the corner..
need to really bury myself in books before its too late....

its counting down to exams and the day i leave singapore...
instead of counting down to cny...

theres many things to do... ive not started packing yet...
ive not started on my revision yet...

and i shouldnt continue slacking....

ciaos.

2008-01-24T07:01:00.000-08:00

真的很奇怪。。
这一个星期，我一直觉得很不安。。
不要问我为什么，
因为我也不知道这是怎么一回事。。
不知道到底在紧张什么。。
就心里很不安.....
快要不能呼吸了！！！

becaz of a stupid ecd presentation and getting back my test! i felt damn anxious ytd. my legs like jelly, 心跳得特别快！是因为ecd results /presentation 所以非常特别的紧张吗？

Os level results are out. yisong did extremely well..good job..

成绩。。
真的有那么的重要吗？
如果考不好。。。
自己就一定不会开心。。
不知情的一点也不懂压力有多大。。
就一直问一直问。。。
结果还是逃不出那强迫的逼问。。
大家也用着不同的眼光看着你的表现。。。
已达不到他们的期望时，
失望的表情就自然而然的浮现在他们的脸上。。。
心好像被无数透明的“那”种眼光射透。。
心情沉重的你。。
好像又受伤了。。

坚持。。

如果我哭了。。
也不能从来。。。

2008-01-13T07:53:00.000-08:00

okie pple im EXTREMELY EXHAUSTED!!~

just to update..
im leaving for guilin nxt mnth after cny.after exams!!

i need sleep badly

2008-01-04T22:52:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! HAPPY 2008~!!

haven been blogging for quite some time. without my presence this blog is somewhat dead! so shall take a short break from all those whatever things that im busy with and revive this almost proclaimed dead blog!!
time passes real fast. its a brand new year! shouldn't do any new year resolution anymore. its quite a waste of time. things doesnt always goes the way i planned anyway. so why care to have a new year resolution. its been a awesome 2007 i have to say.. despite of all the bitter things that i have to go through and some are really unavoidable.. =/ did a couple of productions this year *happy* :)) had plenty of fun!! and not forgetting the pain that i have gone through. BRACESS!!!~ hope i could bite better this year! =] sch been... okiee.. just okiee... theres a need for me to work extra hard this sem though.

anyway ive been busy with my applications for attachment overseas, the shanghai one.. but oh well i didnt make it.. so sue tan decided to put me in guilin instead. everything is not confirm till the attachment draws nearer. so right now i really need to brush up on my chinese!!! if all goes smoothly then ill probably be flying off around end of feb.. ahhh.. thats NEXT month.

the opportunity cost of going to guilin is:
1. cannot do production!!! =(
2. cannot go for baoc =(
3. cannot go for foc...
4. cannot see my friends/family....

the opportunity cost of staying:
1. cannot learn to be independent
2. cannot go to china
3. cannot experience working oversea
4. no resume
5. cannot avoid nagging from my mum.. =pp
6. have to study.

conclusion: GO TO GUILIN!!

sch quite hectic now.. but theres still some time to slack, take a rest, meet up so on and so forth.. if i could, probably ill help char in directing?? shall see how things goes. oh yesh! next week NEXT SUN 13/1/08, at bukit batok interchange.. come get cotton candy from me!!! im selling at 1buck for each!! pls COME !!~

anyway i really do have to sae.. the weather is crazy. sometimes its so cold that the wind is just chilling. it makes you shiver! and when its hot.. its scorching hot!! weird weather!!

大家要照顾自己喔！新年快乐！！

2007-12-26T07:24:00.000-08:00

im so dead..
28 got interview with the managing director of cal-carrie!
AHHH!!!
im going to have sleepless nights again!!!
gosh why muz it be on the 28!!

2007-12-18T07:15:00.000-08:00

so far im enjoying my holiday lots.even though it has been raining and theres projects to rush, scripts to write, but at least its not so tense and tiring. :))

just came back from chalet. im tired. was in a little hut at sentosa with 2 double deck beds, and 7 pple squeezing in it.. its quite small yet cosy la. ive got quite a seriously flu now. caz of the dust? and i barely slept. slept at ard 4 and was entertained by boon and gerald gayingness. den woke up at 6 and sleep again.. till 7 plus 8..the blanket that i shared with zhuzheng was dusty! and he kept throwing over my face. so my sensitive nose is giving me a problem right now! plus i think i caught a flu too.. caz it was really very cold in the hut...urghhh..

anyway it rained ytd.so we had to bbq indoor. bbq all the food we had and mashmellows. yummy. went for a walk at the beach. while some of them went bladding, running and scoccering. was very near to cafe del mar and this is when i start to emo......... so after their night exercise, we went back to clean up and get drunk!

on the way to palawan beach to 7-eleven...

"xiao cao's" aka william face was as red as his t-shirt!! xiao pang's finger nails were LUMINOUS PINK! xiyao dunno wheres the camera!

they did alot of silly things on the way to 7-eleven. its hilarious but being drunk wasnt fun at all.. especially to william and xiao pang.

its fun being with them and the rest of the pple that went for the chalet. its fun ! :))

and as for todae..

after 2 hours of project..

we went to k-ing. with shuang.yiling.minwee and boss........

:))

2007-12-16T07:25:00.000-08:00

todae i found out something very interesting.=)
scandalous leh!!!
"sweet" is good right?
may you and sweet be sweet wor !! woohoo! :))

2007-12-05T08:29:00.000-08:00

im so pissed off after reading someone's tag board.
its getting irritating when you care for someone so you view their blog. and tag to make sure that he is alive. and you get fark off as a reply.
im getting sick and tired of always being treated like that..

2007-12-02T05:23:00.000-08:00

before pple start not viewing my blog. i better update.

alright its been hectic ever since im 18. sad stuff pour in more than happy stuff.
my mum's back to the hospital again. its been a week plus. and i guess she still not well .. yeah..
went to a wake last week. one of the 5 dragon boat was an ex ftp trainee teacher. well everyone knows about it. yeah so i went to pay respect.
common test around the corner. another week more to go till common test starts.
im forgoing alot of things becaz im unassured if im able to pass the interview and spend my 5 months 2 weeks in china for attachment.if im enrolled i better dont take up any major responsibility or commitment if not.... yeah so thats what i have forgo so far. and probably ill miss the major happening events happening in school as well. its holding me back!!
ive completed submitting everything and im really eager to go. pls dont make me disappointed.
friends are breaking up. i dunno why. so far 3 couples ended their relationship. sighh.

anyway i got to comment on this. i went to sp on fridae. to attend their Mr and Miss Singapore Poly pageant. and of course mr sp is cute and good looking blah blah. =) juz got to sae i enjoyed the whole event..its good! how i hope npsu could come out with such thing. its really well rehearse and prepared. and the contestants are gorgeous! its seems like im watching supermodels and project runway! i bet spsu put in lots of effort and money into this! imagine gettting sponsers such as guess, and all other top brands! fabulous!

talking abt well rehearse and prepared. ba talent time is a total disgrace/ disappointment. hell i dun even enjoy it. besides enjoying shidah'ss my new idol performance and kukuballs, william's band perform. the other performance you can pratically sleep or juz leave the theatre. thats how bad it is. technical problem and all happens at the start of the whole show! so what if there are professional judges there?

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YUXUAN!! =))
HAPPY BIRTHAY YILING!!! HAPPY 18!! =))

now what? bck to studying??yeah better be.

ciao.

2007-11-24T22:54:00.000-08:00

18!! im 18!! =))

2007-11-17T08:07:00.000-08:00

im happy today! 1. my cousin got married! =) the bride is pretty. MY COUSIN (HE) is so blessed~anyway i attended a catholic wedding for the first time. its cool...

ive got flowers!~ and a espirit new shirt and meeting up with THEM~

char.tze.tian.YX.ys.zh.zr.bf desmond. yunkai( i was so surprise he was there, glad you come!!) and junyi.

happy 17 birthday to YUXUAN in another 9 more DAYS!!!! =)

its always fun to celebrate birthday with you every year! =)

WHo say i blog sad stuff? lol..

back to projects sad thou...=(

2007-11-05T07:50:00.001-08:00

sometimes spamming is really a nice thing. at least theres are pple to look for when you need help!

this spam mail was from wah long, thanks to him. i think i got my thoughts really clear.

Hi Yonglin,
From an educator's point of view, i would strongly encourage you to go for the exchange program in China. It will do wonders for your development, not so much academically, but broadens your horizen, and at the same time mature as a young adult. Go for it, ok?As for which are the options to take, it largely depends on what you intend to do on the long run. Dun pick one that will give you the best grades or easiest to study/ score; instead, choose one that you'll benefit on the long run. If you've always wanted to venture into marketing et al, pick the marketing one, and so one. If you are not sure of what you want to take up, entrepreneurship is a good one because it encompasses the foundation of all the foundations aka finance, hr, etc. Do give it some thought. Course choices in university are a lot more important than it looks, because you'll be learning from some of the bes tin the industry, and the insights that they give you can really be useful in your career later on.For the night cycling trip, do share with you your route (just the starting point, key/ main roads, ending point) and i should be able to give you some ideas on where you all can stop for a meal. How big's your group? 20? 50? Any safety car/ van/ pickup? Remember to pack the first aid kit and get extra cylum sticks.
Good luck!
Lim Wah Long

den as for lin hui, she said this
anyway, to yonglin's dilemma...
I think you need to decide if you wanna go for the attachment/exchangething first.. if you can just go lah.. it should be good exposure.. 6months pass very quickly one..
to all the options... entrepreneurship always sound very duh to me..dun need to learn that to start a business.. i would go for humanresource, service or marketing comm... sounds like got things tolearn..

well conclusion. im wan my itp as the first choice. den exchange programme as second choice.
i need to give some thoughts abt the options. and bring into consideration all of the above! i need to make a good decision!

2007-11-05T07:23:00.000-08:00

i know myself that my morale is low. i know what affected me.
but life like that. just have to fight it off.
in another few more weeks time.
im turning 18.
i have no idea what has really gone through this 18 yrs.
i dunno if ive live life to the fullest.
well im afraid.
i've lost confidence in myself.

juz did cma tutorial. and i know why all the seniors complain that its tough. i cant do the tutorial questions. sigh.. shows that i need to really work hard for it.

ytd was talking to edward. the guy that worked with me for jinghui's event earlier this march. and turn out to be my senior in sch. he told me to study smart and not hard. so i replied,
"how to study smart when im not smart? i only can study hard.."

you see what i mean. im not a smart kid.

2007-11-04T06:17:00.000-08:00

im vexed. im lost. i need a hand. i need a push. im feeling inferior. and ive lost that confidence. im such a loser.

next week. hectic again. since when sch not hectic? have quite alot of datelines to meet. and we are no where started with any of our projects on hand. ha. its a short sem but it also strains our physical body and our minds.

im feeling very stupid. like why are the people ard me so smart.. im such a dumb ass..

2007-10-31T09:26:00.001-07:00

i always choose to tell lies to myself. so i wont be expose to any naked information that i dont wan to know.or should i say seeing things differently, from another perspective. i never expected that approach, looking at this matter, it always revolves around trust.
its going to get even more complicated in the future.i cant always have that naive thinking anymore. in what way am i going to sail through those rough times? bumpy road, tidal waves..
take it as a challenge then. ill never know whats going to happen if i dont try. i just wish everythings going to be fine. but i cant just simply sit down and wish without doing anything. still have to fight for it? give it a fierce battle and never regret?

ha. yeah right. im preaching about what everyone thinks that its right. and probalby comment "thats the positive attitude!" ha. but im the contradicting one. fight? battle? ha.. its easier said than done. at any point of time. giving up floods my mind.

who's not afraid of being alone? its not easy to make friends with "loneliness". it brings you out of the world. build up four walls just nice to cover yourself up. that his/her way of protecting you. and because its your only friend. you are overjoyed to have that friend.
occasionally you will find yourself better with "loneliness" because he/she is probably the one that knows you better than anyone else. though he/she always claims otherwise. he/she never will scream or shout at you. he/she will provide you a listening ear. a silent one that you would like to have but somehow you will detest it at the same time. isn't it?

ill soon be worn out. my throat hurts. im falling sick. and soon....
on the surface and the inner side.. it contradicts. im tired of this contradiction. im tired of smiling.........

2007-10-28T02:57:00.000-07:00

another week ended in such a fast pace. but its definately more exciting this week. tutorial started. im the fmgt rep.well obvious its because of the cca points.
i met up with sand and kenneth on monday for ice cream. island creamery ice cream! haha that little scope of reverso just cheered me up even though theres a tough week ahead. it like an energy booster. i wan more ice cream!

ice cream anyone?!

2007-10-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

okie. ive survive the first week of the new sem.
with all this new modules.
im worried.
very worried.
caz they are really tough.
my dear "friends" are going to you know sadly accompany me though thick and thin till the term ends... eww..
Blaw, CMA, ECD, Events managements, FMGT,HR management, lets be good friends okie! =)
i treat all of you all ice cream..
dun like beat me up with all the red red marks okie..

in fact.. im damn tired... everydae i need naps.. and i need rest.

theres reading to do. assignments too.. blah blah.. oh well.. sch disgusting..
wish me luck.. i might not like this sem at all.. caz im not liking it..
no more fooling around..

2007-10-14T08:17:00.000-07:00

completed another jdorama by kame =D
sapuri!
im cope up at home for this weekend.. didnt really wan to get out of house. yes. either im too lazy if not i just felt crappy. or should i say i just want to enjoy myself and slack watching more jdorama and also listening to jpop?

either the reason. i didnt leave house at all. yar weird right? haha ive changed.
im going back to sch..
ended attachment.=)
great achievement and satisfaction. not done with the report thou. by 26! eww!

im feeling quite detached frm school..
wondering how it will be..
the upcoming semester.
im worried..

2007-10-10T19:51:00.001-07:00

there is a change in attitude and behaviour when you are in different situation/ places.
at some points you might just lose your "image".. at some point you can look completely like a retard. at some point you look super unglam!

im thinking of all those unglam things i used to do! gosh! no image.!

im different when im in sch. probably its becaz of the pple ard me. or probably becaz of my course.. the serious atmosphere and all..

im different when im in huiguan.
well its the group that i went crazy, do unglam things. as in really unglam!! gosh dun even imagine! im insane!

im different when im with bitches gang.
totally bitchy! haha nah.. we just felt good being together with each other.. talking kakiis

im totally different when im with the rest of them.
quiet i guess. a bit silent.

im different when im in SU
not me.. not the crazy me..

im different when im with different pple..

and i dun wan to get hurt by this..

2007-10-10T08:04:00.000-07:00

ive decided!
i better continue learning jap before it turns rusty!
and so ill be able to understand what they sae!
what yamashita and kame says! haha and of course understand the lyrics!

johnny's jr artists are great!
the dance is awsome!
they are juz like professional dancers...
damn cool.. even more flexible than me!
ah~ im so crazy abt them=))

2007-10-07T07:47:00.000-07:00

ive been rushing through jap doramas like free ever since i started watching proposal daisakusen.. and then i completed hotman2, nobame, kurosagi, nobuta wo produce and long love letter and now its lunch queen!

so far from the start of proposal daisakusen, i was mad with yamashita tomhisa! and so he is starring in all the jdorama's ive watched so far!! WHEEE! =))kursogai, nobuta wo produce, long love letter, lunch queen!! and when i was watching long love letter. takayuki yamada was starring in it too! and SO IT IS in LUNCH QUeen! gosh im going to love those 2 jodramas.. its just like killing two birds with 1 stone! haha.

well. long love letter is the show that really made me sad.. emotionally shaken and all.. its really a great show.. though i didnt really like the ending. its really great to watch it.. =)

well now im at lunch queen! its takayuki and yamashita again! haha =)

2007-10-04T09:01:00.000-07:00

i also have to thank the 4 dao yans for giving me something so memoriable! thankew for the tag! it look PRETTY and nice!

well im going to listen to mum.

"ignore them. dont let people spoil your day.let no one take my sunshine away"

and theres another thing.

im going to pick up nihongo again. well at least i now the basic. how to construct sentences and all when to use desu. masu.ka. so i need to learn vocab and some other words!

and soon im going to understand without reading the subtitles while watch jdorama!! WHEE! :))

and if i fly to japan.. and i meet yamashita tomohisa or whoever. im able to converse with them! GAnBaTTE!!

This is yamashita tamohisa! wooh!~ he is the one acting in proposal duikosasen. =))

2007-10-04T08:15:00.000-07:00

blurr* muthu!
kiat!

flight crew!
mum!
great director wenbin!
yingtong.
bingzhong!

idol fanzexi!
director shiya.miaojuan. and weifen
regina!
weifen!
golden flower quan feng feng!

char!! SM~!
clara! ying hou!
xiling! NTUC auntie!
XIAO MEI!
evil fk! ying di!

flight SGD 02 landed peacefully....... and though it landed for almost a week.. the flight crew have gone gaga! SPAMMING!!!!~

i had great fun at qgy..although i didnt have a chance to eat alot cause of the task given by liren to entertain everyone!!

the 4 golden flowers!! roxanne. char.huitian and me!

???!!!haha..before qgy ??!# even started. huitian.roxanne.zh and i.. we went to KBOX! why the only 4 of us??? caz the rest of them PS! oh well but we did have fun!! HIGHHHH!!

then it was a very long evaluation.. even after the whole qgy ended.. we tech pple still having our evaluation.. haha well. seems that this time round we are always having tons of meeting and meeting... =))

i enjoyed qgy lots!! thanks to you you you and YOU!

2007-10-03T06:46:00.000-07:00

yup! photos of mid autumn festival!!
tong.regina.keng.linhui.me.fk.zh!

i love mid-autumn festival this yr!!

2007-09-26T21:50:00.000-07:00

i had a great time this yr's mid autumn festival!! all thanks to miao juan! =)

when theres photos im going to upload them =)

Flight SGD02

2007-09-24T19:06:00.000-07:00

im so tired that i could not stop dozing off to sleep in front of the computer again and again.. damn! i hope i'm not caught by my boss.. its already week 5 and i've gotten my PAY!!! another two more weeks and its sch... arughhh.sigh.. gosh and ewwww...retarded*

i need a BREAK!!~~~
its an on-going continuous "thing".. i wasn't spared with any breaks in between.Immediately after exams, i was staging act 20.And straightly after that, i started on my attachment, working days. And during this period, many things had to happen for a reason which till now i do not know why. In between the weeks of my attachment days, theres still a process of working towards another production Flight SGD02. I was practically spending the weekends down at huiguan, either for a long meeting or rehearsal. Totally had a different experience in Flight SGD02. from P.U.T (pple up there) point of view. i got to see things more clearly... the cast are very bonded.. the feeling is nice..

from an SM (CBL) to another SM(missing) to an actress to a tech crew.. in between this on going everlasting changing process.. obviously the feeling is different. The common thing is Responsibility and commitment and not forgetting friends of all ages. guess thats what kept me going.i choose not to take whatever that ive discovered, but just an act of childishness as what so many pple have told me.

i dun like the feeling of emptiness after a production. but im not feeling it.. its neither relieve nor emptiness.Its... just im back to the normal old boring life of my own again.though i have to admit i like being with them.This time round. I choose to believe that they are real.

MUMMY its OVER!!!!

on board flight sgd02 wad fun of course. Getting together again and work together for another production.thrilling, tiring, late nights.Despite all the frustration and level of stress everyone is undergoing, its all worthwhile. thankew everyone!! hope the flower is still alive!
sucessful flight! peaceful flight wor!!!

2007-09-13T08:35:00.000-07:00

ha.. ridiculous..
totally...

pple are weird...
too weird. i think they are frm an unknown planet not found by the astrologist.

thnks bf. thanks matt. thanks SUPERmodel huat.. thanks guys..

i wish theres an earthquake now.
so everyone will know the importance of the pple around them.
all such craps will come to an end.
and all of us will be naive again.
i wish for an earthquake.
here on my land.
where no one gets hurt.
but realise about the truth in them.

2007-09-11T08:54:00.000-07:00

i had a happy night..
with the cast of zhi fei ji..
well not all. most is shiya's and liting's cast.
its nice.. and it heals my wound..
although im stil kinda affected by whatever that i discovered ytd..
still in a really dull mood..
but thanks to "mummy".. she brought back my laughter and smiles. =)
hearts "mummy"

im fortunate and lucky to have my "mummy" and many others that cares..

of course not forgetting the body..
im going to try my best to forget about this..
but its going to take long..
to think that it actually happens to me for the first time in my 18 yrs of life so far..
its hurting..
i repeat its hurting..
probably this is what will make them happy..
hurting me..
well i cant shake that off..
i have to admit...

im going back to my world..
the world that i belong to..
you dont exist..
in my world...the ones around me are the best..
the place where i feel belong to...
the place where such THINGS would never happen...
you dun belong in this world!
and since we are of different world..
get out!!

everyone is loved...
thnks tingle.beh.fred.nad.kt.kenneth.jp.char.

it still hurts but im getting over it soon!

2007-09-10T07:36:00.000-07:00

im feeling damn sad now..
now i know that im such a person in their eyes..

im sad.
i cant believe this.
oh well..
i should live in my own world.
why am i in this??
ha.. this is so crap.

matt.fred.nad.huat. im in trouble. in a mess. help!

2007-09-07T10:14:00.000-07:00

one week!! haha well my parents are BACK!! woot!

but actually i miss those days where i spend the times alone at home!

haha im weird lar!!

caz so many things happened within a week...

so.. yeah!!!

work sucks as usual thats all!

2007-09-01T09:38:00.000-07:00

im sad.
cause my parents are leaving tmr.
so im going to be home alone..=(
home alone. no fun. nothing.........

knowing too much is not good.
knowing too little juz makes some1 more gossipy.
what is this??

i haven been talking to alot of pple lately..
why?
sigh. i miss talkin to them.. its always nice...

2007-08-30T08:48:00.000-07:00

start of work.
end of act 20.
on board of 紫飞机.

the week is passing by damn slowwwwwly....
feeling a bit of the post production syndrome..
but theres still something to look forward to and that the production in sept.
whats after that?
school probably.
sem 2 going to start.
im damn worried for my results. im damn worried.. pls let my promotion be a smooth one.

act 20 has lots of gossip. haha oh well.. know a bit!
but dunno abit!
i need sources too!
and i found it!

i dun like my job.

2007-08-19T02:17:00.000-07:00

001. How tall are you barefoot? 1.59 like that. =x
002. Have you ever smoked? NO!
003. Do you own a gun? no!
004. Do you hate someone right now? NO!
005. Do you get nervous? YES! most of the time!
06. What do you think of hotdogs? im hungry.
007. What’s your favorite Christmas song? santa coming to town?
008. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? water!
009. Can you do push ups? Of course! im not weak!
010. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry? diamond a gem?
011. Do you like painkillers? kills pain so why not?
012. What is your secret weapon to lure the opposite sex? HAHA!! its secret weapon! why should i say?
013. Do you own a knife? Yes.pen knife! woots!
014. Do you have H.I.V? HELL NO.
015. Name 3 things you wanna do at this exact moment.study.hell exams on tuesday.have to remember all the econs shit. sigh. talk to someone. remember my damn lines for performance next week that clashes with all the exams shit!
016. Name the last 3 things you have bought lately.safety pins. food. contacts.
017. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink. water. bubble tea. apple and orange juice.
018. What time did you wake up today? 11am
019. current worry? my exams, performance sigh..
020. Current hate? exams....
021. Favorite place to be?my bed! or whatever place with good company.
022. Least favorite place to be? The toilet in the hawker centre.
023. Where would you like to go? france or germany or venice.
024. Do you own slippers? yes
026. Favorite color? BLACK.red.yellow. sky blue.
027. Would you like to be a pirate? kinda cool and advantageous!
028. Last time you had an alcoholic drink? just last friday.
029. What songs do you sing in the shower? lalala?
030. What did you fear was going to get you at night when you are a child? BIG MONSTER!
031. Whats in your pocket(s) right now? ew.. tissue!
032. Last thing that made you laugh? er.. forgot..
033. Last thing that made you cry? ha. er haven been crying lately.
034. Worst injury you’ve ever had? painful so why go into this again?
035. Who is your loudest friend? Loudest friend? hmm i dunno! who loud? ah biatches union!
036. Who is your most silent friend? ha i know! junpeng! ming quite silent too..
037. Last movie watched? IVE NOT WATCHED ANY MOVIES SINCE THE START OF THIS FREAKING MONTH!! the last one was HARRY POTTER!! URGHHH!
038. What is your favorite book? potter series. and a few of the rest. haven been reading alot lately. thanks to exams.
039. What is your favorite chocolate? dark chocolate! or milk choc and hazel nuts!! yummy!!!040. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? huh? my wedding?? wil i even get married?!!!
041. What were you doing 12 AM last night? i wish i was sleeping but NO! studying! clinching on ief text sighh...
042. What was the first thing you did today? rub my nose!! haha
043. The day before yesterday? friday?? rub my nose?!! hahaha. oh well..

got this from fred's blog. that biatch has lots of weird weird such question and answer. alright enough rest! go and stduy!!! ief again.. haizz.... still having a low morale..

2007-08-17T07:10:00.000-07:00

morale = low
intellegence = low
mood = low

total failure.

alot of mistakes today for aaa paper. sigh..

2007-08-12T07:46:00.000-07:00

lin is damn dead i tell you!
lin is so dead i tell you!
lin you better study i tell you!
lin you need to do well i tell you!
lin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~

listen to the little devil telling me this! whispering into my ears...

2007-08-11T09:25:00.000-07:00

its fun reminscing the past. well its always fun doing so. so little memories yet so many to talk abt.

i met up with justin and the rest. ming.ernest.alvin.mag.ivan.
well its not a class gathering anymore. seems to be like er juz meet up?
jus wants to go cafe del mar. the one at silso beach. its a nice place lar. but techno at the beach. totally wrong!!

chill out till ard 3 plus. den we left sentosa for ming's place.=) his place was filled with comic! yiling will go crazy there. well they ordered mac caz all of them were hungry.
den later on 4 of us. mag.me.jus.ming. squeeze in ming's bed. trying hard to sleep. i juz know that i was like a frozen prawn. it was cold and non-spacious.

but its fun =))

2007-08-07T06:10:00.000-07:00

alright. i have been super unproductive LAR!! sleep and sleep and sleep for the past few days. and haven been studying much. but i cant help it. im always having a trotting headache!! urghhh.. i NEED TO STUDY!!!

spend the whole afternoon in sch. for briefing and briefing. first was option briefing for yr3. and den it was itp briefing. so i spend the whole afternoon listening to briefings. anyway. my pay kinda low. its 500 per month. 7 weeks im working. and theres lots of stuff to actually complete during work. ewww.. luckily i noe someone that is going into the same company as me.. if not im going to feel damn weird! smart casual wearing. meaning i guess no t-shirts? sighh. office wear lar.. but not suits!

headache ar!!!

2007-08-04T01:35:00.000-07:00

im really disturbed today by the news that ive read on the papers or watching it on TV. none of the news are pleasant. tragics and more tragics. bridge collapse in US. the south korean hostages are not release.climate change. global warming. countries are either flooded with water or temperature has been high. theres an outbreak of hand-food mouth disease in london (millions of cows are killed. its devastating.) and the list goes on day by day.

im SAD! =(

save gaia!

2007-07-31T09:40:00.000-07:00

matthew Choong. also know as matt. or if you think that he resembles a rabbit than call him bunny. well you seldom see him in suit so he showed me this photo. and im impressed by how "packaging" can do to a person. looked like some big boss working in a listed company right. with this type of attire. looking decent?? probably by the first look of this photo. well you might be thinking that he a decent looking boy. innocent and naive boy boy.damn nerdy type that forever buried in mountains of books. and probably the best employee of the YEAR..now lets look at the second photo.

i see you wan to take back your words? how different. decent boy no more. keeping up to the fashion and well acting dao!!with that "hmmph i dont bother about you" face!! cares less about asking lin out anymore.(now i know why this photo!) cant even find time to look at my braces!!( the whole world see it but not YOU! damn what a friend!!im going to change my colour soon lar!) forever busy with keeping up to the fashion. or whatever thing that he is busy at lar!!projects or whatever! super ah beng-ish with the skinny jeans and mat shoes. ewww! at least this photo is better than the one you showed me the other time.

i cant even find the latest photo ive took with you!! see how long have we not met!! where have you disappear to!

but. even how non- decent looking or looking like a rabbit. or how long we guys never meet. all of us cant deny that hes impactful and nice. ( i cant believ im saying this.) "hobo" is his beng-ish greeting.. but somehow that "hobo" is filled with care and just an assurance that you are not forgotten. he used to be the one that i talked alot to. other than the usual bitching gang.(nad.huat.fred.) confine to. and crap with. but with all the stuff that we have to handle while we proceed on with our own paths. theres like lesser time to meet up. lesser time to talk. theres no one to blame for this.. just.. let this friendship be eternalty.

(you better be touched man!! cry!! now!! muhaha!you sae blog abt you den i blog! wad do i get in return?)

2007-07-31T09:01:00.000-07:00

have been posting lots of photographs this few days. theres more!! =)

i enjoyed myself with them lots. though we didnt take as much photos. but its worth a memory. even though its a small group of 6h. its just nice to meet up with them. chill out and well have FUN! =))

if any of the 6h peeps. you all might be wondering. who the one in red?? he's big bully! i bet all of us remember him in that way!

on the bus with ming yi and mag!! i was being squeezed by them!!

the photo was took at the legend. the bar in fort canning!a very serene place, nice place to chill out and while the others play pool.. we took photos!! and crap!!

at the bar!! that our drinks!! it started with only 3 cups of alcoholic drinks.but by the end of the night. we ended up with more than 3!! right at the middle of the pic is the drink called "graveyard"(ming drink. its STRONG! vodka,rum and blah blah! send you to ur grave if you bottoms up!!he wanted to. but so sad no one wants to carry him home :) the pink one is called "sex on the beach" ( whooH! sexy drink! sweet and arousing!) and white wine.(ernest drink)

ernest. mag. and me!! =)

we talked.we laughed. we reminsced about whats happening to us for this few yrs or months that we haven been seeing each other. "Are you attached?" or "got bf/gf not?" or "isnt that ur gf?" or "what happen to you and the who and who ar?" or " who do you like in aitong?" all this questions echoed the kinda enclosed bar we were at.are we the noiest there?? justin's chasing story was an entertainment! haha.it seems to be something that will only happen on drama series or in movies!! gal 247?! love is in the AIR~ haha. and cant you guys see? im mag's girlfriend. isnt it obvious? look!! >.<

haha. as what ive said. although its a small group. we all enjoyed yeah? mag and i are both missing the fun already! so we decided to meet again on the 10! this time we got to take more photos!! camwhore!! and of course before justin goes back to canada! ;] smiles!

2007-07-28T21:13:00.000-07:00

CAMWHORE!~!! we camwhore on sunday before shooting starts! its our JU ZHAO!! =))

?? oh WHERE are YOU??

"body" and me! ahh. she going to kiss me!!

fu lao shi!! haha. char and me!! hearts fu lao shi.cum SM.!! =))

wherre we still cant find you??

muhahaha!! GETting punished By mEE!

we are pretty flowers "hua"! <3

DA BAO ZI!! =O

xiao bao zi >.<

lin lao shi and fu lao shi so ke lian!! muhahaha!!

hehehe... WE are going to THrow lao shi out of the window!!!

want to fight?!

YEAHH!! random!!!

whee!! happy happy US! =))

2007-07-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

school is quite of a happening place today. two events in a row, firstly it was the DJee Radio HeatWaves dance competition at the atrium which i didnt bother to catch. another was the shooting of "hey gorgeous!" well well. of course i was there to support william! M3. i must admit that when he was playing his xphone. he looked indeed attractive. and with all the BS YR2.1 pple supporting YOU, you cant be compared to the rest of the contestants. YOUR flower was sticked with SO many of OUR votes!!

ms koh was there. and she noted that if we were there to vote for william we will all get 2 extra points of participation mark for ief.ha. ive to emphasis that being down there to vote for him is not mainly because of the participaton marks! its becaz well WILLIAM our fren. my exclassmate. so well we nice BS yr2.1 peeps will cheer for him as loud as we can!!

although he didnt get it.. but its one hell lot of an experience. and lots of fun!!ur HOT!

2007-07-18T09:13:00.000-07:00

i realised im trying my very best to cope with all the activities. im glad that i took up the challenge. and said "no" to some stuff earlier on. well. ive been spending time at home. quality time with my parents and that irritating sister. and of course. projects. assignments. jap test. revising. huiguan rehearsals. friends. and not forgetting POTTER!!

ive not been sleeping well these days.and so trying to catch sleep on the bus on my way home and on my way to school.

well i guess. everyone is trying to cope with their own busy schedule. ill do fine. so do you.

and continue being a muggle mugger! woots!

2007-07-16T07:09:00.000-07:00

the world will always spin. and continue spinning.
despite whatever that happens.
it will never stop spinning because i fail AAA.
or because im feeling moody.
for whatsoever feeling.

2007-07-14T08:33:00.000-07:00

well. im sick. yes.caught a flu bug. and a cough bug. my head is heavy. im using tissues like free. yet panadol doesnt HELP!

ewww.. tmr i have to go huiguan damn early. and ewwww.. im tired.. and ewww the nose is not helping..and ewww ive not started revising. well at least for marketing.EC, OM and IEF!!!

ewww. i dun have much time!!!

ewww harry potter and the order of the phoniex is a disappointment!!!

eWWWWWWWW!!!

2007-07-12T07:25:00.000-07:00

well i miss those days.

dont you??

look how naive and childish we all were.

i still love the class.

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